Monday, November 9, 2009

It's a conspiracy!

I swear to you, the universe is conspiring against me today.

My alarm clock didn't go off this morning, so I didn't wake up until 20 minutes before I should be leaving.  I apparently turned if off so it wouldn't go off over the weekend and forgot to turn it back on.  Hurrying around, I tossed some clothes in the dryer so the wrinkles would fall out, and hopped in the shower.  At 20 minutes until class I realized that there was no way I could get to campus, park, and get to class, since the jerks-that-be at the school decided to tear up not one, but two "white zone" parking lots in the middle of the semester!  What kind of idiot rips up two student parking lots in the middle of the semester when there's already a shortage of parking?  Could they not have done this over the summer, or during winter break?  Yeah, I'm pissed in a major way.

So, I woke Matt up to drive me, which was an issue for two reasons, 1) Matt doesn't wake up very easily or quickly, and 2) We're not in the habit of leaving Anakin alone lately because of his health issues.  With no other choice, 15 minutes to class came and as we were walking out the door we saw that some asshat UPS dumb-dumb left a package on our steps.  This wouldn't normally be a problem, except they put it on the second step, which meant we couldn't open the door without knocking the box off.  It's something I've been waiting for, it's breakable, so just swinging the door open and punting the box across the lawn wasn't an option.  Matt, who's much thinner than I am these days, squeezed out the door and onto the steps and collected the package.  10 minutes left to get to class.

We brought the package inside and hurried out to the car.  We were 1/4th of a mile from the house when I realized I didn't have my lab.  Last week, my geology lab went on a field trip.  That means last weeks lab is due today.  Not only had I forgotten it, I'd forgotten my geologic map and the lab was incomplete.  Fuck.  I told Matt to turn around and just decided that maybe today wasn't my day and that I should stop trying to make it my day.  I decided to stay home until 2pm when I have to go to my lab.  I did manage to get last weeks lab partially completed, so at least I'll get some credit for it.  If I could skip the lab, I sure would, unfortunately, going to the lab is an important part of passing geology as it's worth 25% of my geology grade and there're no make-up labs.

So here I sit, when I should be in class, because I couldn't make today work for me.  I hate Mondays, they're my longest day, and this one has failed in a way none have this semester.  I still have my geology lab and then I have a class at 6pm, but I'm thinking it's online this week.  I just have so much to do this week and its been off on such a bad foot already.  I have a rough draft for a paper due in 7 days, and other than some of the research, I've not even started writing it yet.  I have a test Thursday.  Oh, and I'm like 6,000 words behind on my NaNoWriMo novel.

I swear to you, I'm about to just give up.  So much is riding on my graduating this semester, which requires that I pass everything.  It's too much pressure.  I got accepted to grad school, but that will be revoked if I don't graduate with decent grades.  I got financial aid for the spring, which we really need, but I can't get that unless I'm still a grad student in the spring, which rides on my graduating with decent grades.  Everything, and I mean that, is riding on me getting done.  I don't feel like I can take the pressure, I feel like I might crack, and right now, I'm thinking crawling into bed and not coming back out until January sounds pretty good.   In January, I'll wish I hadn't.  I just have another 3 or so weeks to go until finals, I can hang in for another 3 weeks.  I really have no other choice.  I have to do what I have to do.  I only wish it were easier sometimes.

Friday cannot get here soon enough.