Ugh...

I can't believe it's almost Monday already.  Thanksgiving was nice, Matt and I had food and napped and spent the day together, which was awesome.  We went for pie at a friend's house, which was really nice until my wisdom tooth started to bother me.  All in all, even though I got a toothache, Thanksgiving was nice.  I miss my family, but then that's nothing new for the holidays.

I spent all day yesterday, and all day today (and I mean literally) studying for my geology test.  The test is tomorrow and I don't feel like I know anything.  This test, which is over 3 sections, is the hardest test we've had so far and I don't think he gave many (if any) extra point days, so I'm on my own with this one.   The problem is, I epic failed the lab final last Monday, so I really need to do okay on the lecture tests just to make a C in this class.  Right now, even after the whole weekend spent studying, I feel like I'm going to fail it.

This is not my usual doom and gloom, believe me, there's a difference between freaking out for no reason and freaking out when there's plenty of reason!  This is the second, there's plenty of reason.  If I don't pass this test, and I fail the class as a result, then I don't graduate, and don't go to grad school and everything is messed up.  I do mean EVERYTHING.  If I don't graduate, I can't get anymore financial aid because I already had it repackaged.  Everything's set for me to move on, I just need to actually do it and graduate, which is riding on this class.

Oh, and did I mention that just to make matters worse I have to mail my video card to Alienware to have them fix it.  So, my desktop doesn't work.  Not only does that suck, it's down right bad right now since my netbook doesn't have MS Word, just Works, and I have a 20-25 page paper due in a week.  Yay for my shitty luck.

And, if I didn't feel shitty enough, I failed at NaNoWriMo but lucky me I got to watch Matt validate and collect the winner goodies.  I'm proud of him, but I feel pretty damn unhappy that I didn't finish.

Ugh, okay, I'm done bitching.  I know this probably sounded like a crazy amount of rambling.  I'll let you know how it goes.  For now, even though it's only 9pm, I'm going to bed.  I'm going to get up early in the morning and study some more before class.  Wish me luck, I need all the good luck and good vibes I can get!

I hope you had a very happy Thanksgiving.  See you on the other side of doom test! :(

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  1. Honey I will say a prayer for you to pass that thing...I know that you can do it. Congrats to Matt for finishing the NaNoWriMo...but honey don't be soo hard on yourself for not finishing...I'm sure you did your best with all you have going on it was just one too many things... next year maybe you can finish or wait until you are done w/ college completely and do it then.

    Love you and miss you! Mom

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  2. i failed nano too. blargh.

    RE: need MS Word....
    did you know that you can download and use "OpenOffice" for free and it can read and save things in Word file name?
    It's pretty nifty. I use it alot lately because i carry around a USB stick with PortableApps.com everywhere i go. Just a thought.
    .-= Mayren´s last blog ..Nanowrimo = epic fail =-.

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  3. Thanks, Mom. I think I did okay, maybe a 75 or so, of I graded it right (we get to keep the test, so I mark down my answers so I can check them later). There were 7 or 8 of them that I didn't know one way or another because I couldn't find/figure out the answers. Hopefully I didn't do worse than 70! I just may make that C yet!

    I'm really proud of Matt for finishing it. I know it may not sound like it, but I am. I think I'm just bitter that I wasn't able to finish it. Doing it this year really meant a lot to me. Although, now I can finish my novel at my pace and not worry about word counts, just about the story, so that's nice.

    I love you! I'll talk to you soon. Have to study for my Geology make-up tonight and tomorrow morning. Wish me luck

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  4. Sorry to hear you failed, too.

    Thanks for the suggestion about Open Office. I tried it, but I don't really care for it. It's compatible, but not compatible enough for what I need to do with it. I'm just going to work on the paper in the library at the school, which means I'm going to be logging a LOT of library hours over the next week. Blarg! Matt didn't like the idea much, but using his computer would just be too inconvenient, since he's using it when I would need to be... yay video games (<--- sarcasm).

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  5. The way I am looking at your situation is when you break through this last obstacle, anything else you face in Grad School will be easier.
    .-= MC´s last blog ..Express Checkout: Ugly Betty, Twilight, Persona 3 =-.

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  6. The way you look at things is awesome, MC! I need a little of that ingenuity in thinking. :D

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  7. Good Luck!! Glad u did well on the one you took today! I was actually thinking the same thing about your novel...it's more than half done according to your word count so keep up the good work!!

    Love ya!! Mom

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  8. Thanks, mom. I was actually going to call you to say hi and chat some last night but I didn't get done outlining for today's test until 1am our time.

    Anyway, my novel's no where near half done. It was only half-way to the 50,000 mark for NaNoWriMo. I changed my sidebar widget to say 75,000 words, which is a bit closer to accurate. I hope not to go over that, but I may come right up against it.

    I love you, I'll call you tonight!

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