Sunday, November 15, 2009

Words, lots and lots of words!

I've been working on my 20-25 page paper all weekend and I've managed to write 10 pages.  If my paper runs 20 pages, then I'm about half done.  I don't think I'm going to get much more out before tomorrow night when it's due.  I've really struggled to get out what I've gotten out.  I'm really floundering around in the dark with this paper, this is uncharted territory for me and I really don't like it.  The amount of discomfort I'm feeling in writing this is so far off the scale, leading to a great deal of insecurity.  I want to get it done, but it's going to need a lot more work.  The final draft is due in 3 week, on December 7th, and it's probably going to take me that long to finish it.  At least with half the paper written, I can turn it in to my prof and get her opinion about what I'm doing and her suggestions for how I might make it better.  I'm just terrified she's going to say that I'm doing it totally wrong.  I need to pass this class with a B or better, as a C or less is failing in grad classes.

When I put down my pen (as it were) last night, I was exhausted, but rather than closing up shop and going to bed, I worked for almost 3 hours on my novel.  I got about 2,000 words written.  So, now I'm only 12,000 words behind, rather than 14,000.  I'm going to catch up, if it kills me!  Getting to work on my novel was my reward for getting so much work done on my paper yesterday!  I didn't get to bed until late, but I did get a lot done yesterday.  My paper outlined and started, 2k words written, and Kate's blog moved to  Like I said before, all the entries are locked, but at least the blog is visible.  I also made a small button for my sidebar that links to the site -- for some reason, is moving super slow lately, so bear with it.

When I got up this morning, about 11am, I didn't feel like I could jump right into my paper for the fog in my head, so I worked on a little something to make myself feel motivated to keep writing.  I added a "Remembering Tomorrow" page to my blog (see it?  Up there on the nav bar?) and put the mock book cover I made on that page.  Eventually, there will be information about the book's stats (ie. page numbers, final word count, etc) and an excerpt and synopsis.  I also plan to put editing progress up on that page, when I get to that step.  For now, the only thing there is the cover, but I'm happy with how it came out.  All the stuff for this novel is taking on that same picture/theme, the broken heart, but I think it fits.  It's helping to keep me motivated to keep going, even when I have so much else to do right now.

I think tonight, I'm going to put in a little bit more time on my paper and then work on my novel.  If I'm lucky, I'll get a few thousand words written.  I'm aiming for 5,000, but I probably won't make that.  The book is starting to take off, it's just getting into the main plot, and I'm looking forward to getting to writing that.  It's almost 6pm, so if I'm going to do it, I need to get started, as time is running short.  I hope you're having a great weekend!

Good night!