Friday, January 1, 2010

Welcoming 2010...

Happy New Year!!

It's a beautiful day here in central Texas, about 50 degrees right now.  Matt's sleeping soundly for the first time in almost a month, and has been for the past 10 or so hours.  I've been thinking all morning about what I want to say today, and this entry will be a work in progress because I have plans to go grocery shopping in about 15 minutes.   After that, I've promised what's left of the day after that to Matt.  So, this may not see the light of day until tomorrow.  We'll see.

I'm not very good at New Years resolutions.  Every time I've made them, I've failed to keep them, which makes me leery to make them.  Last year, I resolved not to make a resolution, and so succeeded instantly at the task.  Of course, I also failed instantly, but who's counting?!  This year, I want to make some because I feel like this year could be awesome if I give all I have to making it so.  This is remarkably optimistic for me.  I think the worst until I'm proven otherwise, and every year I welcome the following  365 days with pessimism, sure that they'll suck.  In turn, they normally do suck.  So, this year, I'm trying to think positive.  It's a new decade, 2010, and with it comes new chances.

In 2010 I start a new educational adventure, a new chance.  Matt and I celebrate our 10th wedding anniversary, a turning point.  I'll finish my novel, an opportunity.  I'm looking forward to 2010 in a way I've never looked forward before and if that makes me an optimist, even for today, I'll take it.  So, what are those resolutions I'm resolved to make this year?

  1. Commit to freelancing -  This is really important to me.  Now that I have my bachelor's degree, if I feel like I should start doing something with it, even though I'll also be a graduate student and might have a (part-time) day job.

  2. Finish my novel - I'm about 25,500 words in, so this isn't a fresh start, but rather a project I really want/need to finish.  I know it's a good idea, I just need to commit to it again, so here it is!

  3. Devote myself meaningfully to a planned, joint creative project - Matt and I, as it says, have decided to undertake a joint creative venture.  I'm really excited about this, I know he is too, so we'll start putting things down on paper soon.  It should be fun, if we can agree, which will be the biggest problem.

  4. Get in better shape - Yes, this is a resolution everyone has made at some point.  It's the most overly sought after achievement in the history of New Year's resolutions, but that doesn't make me want it any less.  I must do something about my weight.  I would point out this does not say "lose [insert #] pounds."  I'm not that brave, I'm not devoting myself to a specific number.  Right now, anything would be an improvement, so that's what I'm aiming for, anything.

  5. Get organized - Okay, I know, another overly used one.  I don't much care that it's common, what I care about is that I really need it.  My house is a huge cluttered mess!  I need to sort through what I have and get rid of some stuff.  I'm such a pack-rat.  A few more years and I swear 'Hoarders' is going to be showing up at my door with cameras and a psychologist.  When we get the office floor laid down and I can put my desk back in there, that will help, we'll have one whole room to use that's not getting any use right now.  Maybe a virtual (read: eBay) garage sale is in order!

Okay, so there you have it!  Rather than making one resolution, I'm taking the opportunity to make five of them.  I feel like 2010 will be a better year, it just simply has to be, and I want to make the most of it!  I think it helps to put there here, too, a little bit of accountability never killed anyone... I hope.

I hope everyone had a very Happy, and safe, New Year.  May 2010 be better than 2009 proved to be!!


  1. Happy New Year for you too Kirsten!! Good luck with the resolutions! ;) Hope you can keep it up.

    Not too many resolutions for me, I just HAVE to go to the gym more often this year, and I want to start packing lunch for my husband. He's been so kind to pack mine for the past 2 years!!
    .-= Dizzy Dee´s last blog ..Welcome To 2010, Almost Soccer World Cup @ South Africa! =-.

  2. Glad to hear that Matt is finally able to sleep and hence feeling some better! Your resolutions sound like good ones...I know that if you set your mind to it you will keep them. Godd luck Sweetie!! Love You! Mom

  3. Wow Kristyn, I admire your ambition with the resolutions you chose. I'm going to have a hard enough time keeping up with my measly two. Although I am proud to say that, as of today, I only have two quarters in the cussing jar. And I can already feel myself "watching myself" when it comes to my language. Although I do need to come up with some creative replacement words, because it's boring not being able to cuss. Lol

    Regarding your resolution to get into better shape, have you ever considered enrolling into a fitness class through your local junior college? They have credit/no credit options, and two major plusses of enrolling in a class is: 1. It forces you to keep to a schedule (instead of relying on your on self-motivation, or lack thereof), and 2. the cost of enrolling in a junior college class is significantly cheaper than a monthly membership to a gym.

    Anyway, just a thought. Good luck with your resolutions!

  4. Happy New Year to you too, Danette!! I hope yours is awesome!! It's really nice of your husband to pack your lunch, that's really nice of him. Good luck with your resolutions this year. :)

  5. Me too, Mom. He's been having headaches, still, but much less often. He's slept for the last two nights, which is huge for him, and was happily telling me a few minutes ago that he's gotten through the whole day with no headaches. He's finding the rinse to be really helpful.

    I love you, too!!

  6. Thanks, Jodi! I'm glad to hear that you're making progress on your resolutions already, might just be able to break that bad habit after all! You're much braver than I am with that one, I could never give up the cussing. Of course, I also don't have little ears taking in my words, unless my shih-tzu counts. :)

    Thanks for the suggestion about the class. Sadly, we don't actually have a community college, just the university. The closest community college is more than an hour away. I did take a fitness walking class and a bowling class a few summers ago. It was a total nightmare. Working out in public makes me upset, damn social anxiety, so joining a gym would definitely be out. For the classes, I walked five days a week for two hours and didn't lose a single pound, but I did pull the ligaments in one of my ankle and gain weight when the class was over. I'm afraid accountability to classes only works when I'm getting credit for them. Rather, I think I'm going to get a Nintendo Wii and do Wii Fit!! I can use it to get in shape, and I can play video games with it, can't beat that!!

    Happy New Years and good luck keeping up with yours. I bet your kids are eagerly watching the jar, hoping for a slip up now and then. :D

  7. You got that right--I'm pretty sure my kids are actually goading me to slip and say the s-word, lol.

    Bummer about the bad luck you've had so far with fitness classes. With your social anxiety, it does sound like at-home workouts would be the best option. Wii Fit is fun, but I could never stick with it because each workout only lasted for about two minutes and then you had to choose a new workout, so there was way too much downtime. But I hear the new Wii Fit allows you to put together your own uninterrupted workout program (something the old version was missing), so I'm sure you'll have better luck with it.

    Good luck with whatever you choose! :-)

  8. Thanks, Jodi. The other option I was thinking was getting a treadmill, but I don't really have enough space for a treadmill, even though they fold up. Besides, when I was a kid my mom had a treadmill and we never used it, so she sold it. LOL. She also had an exercise bike, same story. I'm a little bit afraid that it'll be something that sits and collects dust.

    I did the whole work-up on the Wii Fit at my friends house once, all that weigh-in and balance stuff, then I did some hula-hoop and it was crazy fun! I also saw that it allows you to do yoga, which I love!! There're some stances I can't do, because I have bad knees and my weight makes it impossible for me to balance on my knees for any length of time, but I can do all the standing, sitting, and laying positions!

    I also saw that Wii has Wii Sports, which is crazy fun. We did the boxing on Wii Sports and when we were done, I was tired and exhilirated... and couldn't stretch my arms out without pain for two weeks!! The muscles in my arms got a serious work out doing the boxing motion, I loved it!! :D

  9. Kristyn,
    I think the Wii Fit is a great idea! Not to mention, you'll have the benefit of having the Wii console if you choose to buy any other games (the new Super Mario Bros is really fun!) Of course, you always run the risk of becoming addicted to MORE games. We love our Wii though. I DO have Wii fit, but have not gotten into it for the same reasons Jodi discussed, but the new version sounds great.
    My close friend is struggling with her weight, and she is going to get that lap band. I think her insurance is covering part of it though. I guess if your BMI is high enough, insurance covers the whole thing. I don't think you have insurance though? (I don't).
    Good luck with your resolutions. I didn't make any this year because I always break them. My husband decided to quit smoking, and hasn't had a cigarette since NYE, so I am really proud of him.

  10. Thanks, Shannon!! I hope the new Wii Fit is awesome, I really need something to help me with my weight. I wish I could afford the lapband, but alas, I don't have insurance so it's not practical for me. I'd also like to get Essure, but I can't afford that either right now. Maybe when I get done with college and get a good job, I'll go in and have both things done.

    I'm hoping to be able to do something about my weight without surgery. My BMI is more than high enough that if I had insurance they'd pay for it, but again, no insurance. I had my gallbladder out a few years ago (about 6 years ago, I think) and it's added to my problems losing weight. Gallbladder filters out fat, without it, it's though. I also have some problems associated with that that're entirely too disgusting to discuss here, but make it hard for me to keep food in me, which makes it hard to absorb the nutrients from said food, which makes my body think I'm starving when clearly I'm not. Add to that my very slight thyroid problem (so slight that the doc I was seeing said I didn't need meds for it), which makes me cold ALL the time, even in the middle of the summer, and makes it hard to lose weight, and I have some serious dieting problems.

    When I get my Wii, I'm going to start eating more healthy and taking Alli again. That stuff works, and it works well, so hopefully the mix of good eating habits, exercise I can enjoy, and Alli, and I'll be on track. My goal is to lose all the weight I would like to lose, over the next two or so years. That way, I don't lose it too fast. Fingers crossed it works or I may have to just give up and be fat. lol

    It's awesome your husband quit, I wish mine would! I hope you have a fantastic year, Shannon!!

  11. Wow Kristyn, you have SO many obstacles. I had NO idea you had your gall bladder removed! Holy s*&$! And then when you add all that other stuff...It sounds like you have some good ideas though. The important thing is to create small but measurable goals so you don't sabotage yourself. And be kind to yourself. I hope you have a fantastic year as well. It sure has to beat last year, right? =)