On the Road Again...

When I was growing up, my family took a road trip to Texas most years. It was something we always looked forward to, we'd stop along the way at places like the Meteor Crater and Grand Canyon in Arizona and Carlsbad Cavern in New Mexico and my folks would give us $100 each to do with what we pleased for "vacation money."  This was their answer to allowance.  Rather than getting allowance we got money for souvenirs along the way.   Genius if you ask me, I mean, had they given us that money during the year, we'd have used it to buy scruncii's at the mall or something and would have had nothing for vacation.

Anyway, now that I'm all grown up, rather than taking trips from California to Texas, we're going from Texas to California.  Matt and I have driven to California twice, in the last 11 years, and I'm on the road with my aunt right now, and I find that though I'm not much of a traveler, I still enjoy the trip between CA and TX (or vice versa) along I-40.  We did take a bus to CA one year from Waco, which was a total nightmare, and it took I-10, but there's just nothing down there (except maybe Shawn in Phoenix, lol), so we always like to take the I-40 when we can help it.

My Aunt Sue and I left California around 11:30 a.m. this morning, which was about an hour and a half later than we had planned.  Still, after a late start, we made it all the way to Holbrook, AZ before calling it a night.  It's about 480 miles, which isn't a bad start toward the almost 1,100 miles or so between Hesperia, CA and Plainview, TX, where we'll stop to see family before continuing on to Central TX.  So, tomorrow, we have about 580 miles to go.

It was really hard for me to leave CA this time.  I always have a hard time leaving because I know it'll be a while before I can see my folks again, but I always know that I need to go home and deal with my real life (as opposed to my awesome vacation life where I have no responsibilities).  It wasn't like that this time.  This time, I just wanted to stay and not go home.  I miss Matt and my babies, but I did not want to go back to Texas.  I just kept telling myself that I had to, but that didn't make it any easier.

I tend, you see, to be one of these people that sets my mind on something and want it right then.  When I want something, I want something, and that's that.  Well, I really, really want to move to California.  I'm done with my BA, and I'm ready, for the first time in 11 years, to go home and stay there.  I have moments where I wish, and I do mean wish, that I'd never moved away.  They're fleeting moments, most of the time, because I really do like Texas -- especially Waco-- but it's been really hard on me to be so far away from family for so long.

Anyway, when it came time to go, I actually cried and I never cry.  I cried because I wanted like hell to stay, and because my mom was crying which made me cry.   I feel like such a baby, but I don't want to go back to my little house in tiny little nowhere TX.  I don't want to.  Yes, I know I sound like a five year old, having a little tantrum, but I DON'T WANT TO GO HOME!!  Take that!

So, it's getting late and I need sleep.  I'm about to be off to sleep, we have along day tomorrow.   Next time I get the chance I'll write more about my actual trip, and seeing Jodi and Shannon, but for now, I'm tired and I've already written too much.

Good night.

12 comments

  1. Sorry it was so hard to leave! It's hard when you're so far that you can't visit often!

    Good luck with the rest of the trip. I hope you have lots of road trip games to play like we always do!

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  2. Don't forget to stomp your feet there Kristyn, and throw a remote or a shoe across the room. If you're going to throw a fit, you might as well do it right. ;-)

    I'm not going to be very reassuring at the moment, because you know how I feel about you moving back. I just think life is too short not be close to the ones we love (i.e. our families). I learned that lesson in a big way when we lived in Wisconsin; grass and trees are nice, but pretty scenery just could never quite fill in that void of no longer having my family around.

    Hang in there though, with you being in the master's program, the time will fly by really fast, and you'll be home soon enough. :-)

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  3. Can't wait to have you here permanently! that would be so cool!
    .-= Mayren´s last blog ..FCC Plan Rant cont'd =-.

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  4. Kristyn
    I am gonna even be LESS helpful. Seeing you was SO awesome, and made me feel so nostalgic that I REALLY want you to move back. I want to have you and Matt over for BBQs, and we can sit on my patio and play stupid board games, have a couple drinks, argue over politics or whether you should pop out a kid or not (haha!), and just be silly. It was great to see you again. I had forgotten how much fun you are to hang out with. So Matt needs to figure out how to transfer his units to CA (yeah right!), and you need to enroll in grad school here...and you guys need to get your butts over here! (Told you I wasn't gonna be very helpful!)
    I hope you had a safe trip back.

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  5. Way to go there Shan. She feels much better now. LOL

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  6. Thanks, Phoena!! Mostly, my aunt and I just chatted all the way there and back. I talked her ear off, lol.

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  7. I did, I stomped my feet and threw a fit! LOL. No, but it really was very hard for me to leave this time. I have things I have to do here, like school, so it was important for me to get home on time. Still, it's hard knowing I won't seem my family for a while.

    It was really nice to visit with you. I'm so looking forward to being back and close to my family again, even if the move is going to be a though one and the next couple of years aren't going to be easy. You're right though, trees and green rolling hills are nice, but being close enough to visit family and friends is nicer.

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  8. Yay for being able to visit without a pesky time table to get in the way!! ;)

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  9. Geez, Shannon, now I feel soooooooo much better. LOL. No, no, I kid. Honestly, hanging out with you and Jodi made me feel all nostalgic, too. I'd really like for y'all to be able to meet Matt, I think you guys will like him. Two years is going to fly by, but it's also going to be the slowest two years ever! May 2012 cannot get here soon enough, in my opinion!!

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  10. You're home!!! Yay!!!! Come see me and tell me all about your trip!!!

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  11. Missed you, I'll see you soon!! :)

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  12. Sounds like you made it home safe! I'm glad you did!

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