Sunday, March 28, 2010


I've always been a terrible tester.  Even when I know a subject, there's something about testing that scares the good sense out of me.  When I was in elementary school, I was in RSP and so wasn't required to take part in the standardized testing that everyone did every two years, or so.  When I went to high school, I took a few AP classes, but never took the tests because I was afraid to fail them.  I never took the SAT or ACT tests, again, because I was afraid to fail them, and because I didn't need them since I was going to Community College.  The only standardized tests I've ever taken was the AccuPlacer when I moved to Texas, because you can't enroll in any college in Texas without it, and the Writing Proficiency Exam at Tarleton, because no one graduates without having passed it.

With all that in mind, I signed up for the GRE a few days ago, and I'm feeling very woozy about it.  I got a reminder in my email today, which brought it back to mind.  My appointment to take the computer-based GRE is Tuesday at 2pm in Waco.  The fact is, I've put it off for too long.  I need to take it, I can't register for classes on for Summer or Fall until I do.  It's $160, so I decided that now was a good time, since I have the money.  Now that I'm registered, I'm not feeling particularly good about it.  I've taken the practice GRE questions on the website several times and never scored about 65% on any of the sections and considerably worse on the math parts.

I feel like I've got a good education, but I'm a terrible critical thinker.  I suck at Math, of every kind.  Needless to say, I'm really worried that I won't do well.  There is one consolation right now, and that's that my school doesn't care what you make, only that you take it.  Still, it reflects me and my ability, and so I want to do well.  I'm not holding my breath, I know I won't do well, but I'm hoping that my scores on the writing part will compensate for my inability to do well on the other parts.  If there's anything I do well, it's write.  Anyway, Tuesday is the day, which cuts into my schedule in a major way, but what has to be done, has to be done.

Wish me luck.


  1. Any chance you might need a little rest and relaxation after your ordeal? You could stop in for a bit and get refreshed before making the long drive back to BFE. :)

  2. We were planning to drop by and say hello, of course! We haven't seen y'all in an eternity. Would y'all want to go out and eat with us?

  3. I love both of the new blog themes. Good luck on the GRE test!
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  4. Thanks and Thanks, Shannon. I'll try!

  5. Sure, we will both be off work by 5pm. You pick the place.

  6. Is there any tutoring available at the college? I suppose it's kind of late now, but I'm sure there are people who can help tutor you on the areas in the test you're not very good at.

    It probably doesn't help that you keep reminding yourself that you're a terrible tester and you're terrible at certain subjects. Sometimes just changing the mantra you tell yourself in your head can help so you don't become a self-fulfilling prophecy. Do you think you could tell yourself that you USED to be a bad tester, but you're getting better at it? It can't hurt.


  7. I wish! I mean, if I could trick my brain, that would be awesome. Unfortunately, taking the practice questions on the GRE site has made it worse, because it is reminding me that I'm a terrible tester. No self deprecation necessary, the stupid test is doing it for me.

    There is a GRE prep program at my college, but yeah, it's a little late now. I procrastinated too long. Sometimes, it's bad to put things off this long. :(

  8. I hope it went well! i love elegant themes the website. I am trying to modify one of their themes for my design site lately. tooo cute right?
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  9. So now do we have to write GRE or only GRE subject test (Math) or both if we want to join a grad college or they are all just moot now ?

    GRE math score