Hesitant, Hopeful

It's twenty minutes to 4 a.m. here and I'm watching 'New Moon.'  I can feel you thinking, judging me, but I like it!  I haven't read the books yet, but I'm sure I'll get around to it at some point... maybe.  Time's short for me right now as I try to rally and get everything done in time for the end of the semester.  I got my last 4-page response paper and the essay questions for my final done today, so that's two things down.  All I have left is two classes, one play to read, two 20-page papers to work on and a final.  It's getting down to the wire and getting things done is starting to take on a whole new difficulty.  I'm sure I'll get it done, I'm just trying to take things one assignment at a time from here until noon on May 12th, when my last assignment's due.

Otherwise, I'm working on finishing the application for the assistantship.  I need to get some references, which is never easy because I don't know many people.  I think I'll ask the same people who gave me references when I was applying for the writing center job earlier in the semester.  They already agreed to give me a reference, I just need to make sure it's okay to still use them.  Should be fine.  I need to get that in before the end of the semester, so I'm in a little bit of a rush with it.

On top of everything else, I decided last week what I'm going to do my thesis over, so I need to send an email to my committee chair and run it past her, make sure I'm on the right track.  If so, then I can start researching, if not I need to go back to the drawing board and come up with something else.  I know I'm going to be doing Greek & Renaissance Drama for my thesis, I'd rather not say more until it's set in stone, and maybe not then.  I'm jealously guarding my intellectual property on this one, never know who might come along and think it's a good idea and take it.  So, my lips are sealed for the time being.  Yes, I know that gives me a lot of credit toward the idea, maybe more than I deserve, but I'm keeping it to myself for now.

I don't know if I said so but, I'm not going to be taking classes over the summer.  I was going to, frankly I need the financial aid, but by the time it paid my tuition and Matt's there would be nothing left and it's just not worth my sanity.  I don't need the hours, and while he does, it's something we mutually decided would be in our best interest.  So, I'm going to be taking the summer off, working on my freelance stuff to help support us financially, and trying to get most of the stuff on the senior reading list read and notes taken for each book.  It's going to be a nice summer, busy, but nice... at least for the most part.  My family has some things going on, my folks will be here in June to see my grandmother, who's very sick, and we'll be going to North Texas to see them, and her, when they're out.  Otherwise, the summer is ours to do with as we please.  It occurs to me that I might have said most of this before, so forgive the repetition.  I can't remember what I have and haven't said half the time.

I've already registered for most of my fall classes, my schedule is Tuesday & Wednesday nights from 6-9pm, but that's on 6 credit hours.  I have to have 9 to qualify for the assistantship, but there're aren't enough classes available to me, for a multitude of reasons, so I'm trying to work in another class.  Might be taking a history, as a problems course, that's in the interest of my thesis.  Long story, one I'm still not sure about, so I'll pass on the details, which probably wouldn't mean much to you anyway.

I feel like all I talk about is school these days.  I know it's not that interesting, but it's all I have.  It's the biggest and most present thing in my life right now, which will hopefully subside a bit as the summer approaches.  I sure hope so, I feel like such a drag.  Anyway, it's about 4 a.m. and I'm going to lay down and watch the movie.  Maybe I'll fall asleep, that'd be nice.  Unlikely, but nice.  I've had 3 hours of sleep in the last two days, so I'm exhausted, but I don't feel like sleep is in the wings for me just yet.

Good night.