Hesitant, Hopeful

Wow, where have I been?!  You know that saying that the longer you don't do something, the harder it becomes to do it again... well, that's very true with blogging. Get busy, don't blog for a while, suddenly all you want to do is avoid blogging because you can't seem to gather your words. Or, at least that's my experience. Anyway, spring break was last week and that made me lazy. It also made me grumpy, but I'll get to that. So, I'm back in school this week and that means back to routine. When I have a routine, so much more gets done.  So much more!  When I have breaks, I tend to use them doing absolutely nothing for the whole break. Best intentions be damned, I tend to turn into a lump.

Yeah, so spring break was okay but not nearly long enough -- I say that every break, in case you hadn't noticed it before. While I had things to do over spring break, I managed to do almost nothing, which was nice.  Bad, but nice.  Thanks to my lack of diligence, I have an abundance of things to do and little time to do them, which makes me grumpy. I'm also a bit grumpy that I didn't manage to get anything fun I wanted to do done, either. I have a few books I'd love to read, I want to sew (and have all the materials to make a few more bags like the one I made before), I'd have loved to work on my novel, but none of those things made it into my actual daily activities.  I would have done absolutely nothing if it weren't for my Composition Studies midterm (on which I made an A!!), the seven papers I had to grade (which doesn't sound like much but took me about 4 hours), and the fact that my house was a disgusting mess.

As you can imagine, the first thing I did after my midterm, which I actually finished on Friday night before spring break officially begun, was to clean the house. I cannot stand to live in a mess.  I'm not much of a housekeeper, but I'm also not a total slob... I like to find a happy medium because I don't want to spend all of my time cleaning. I'd really like to get into the habit of spending 15 minutes to a half an hour every evening cleaning up, but I'm so tired in the evenings that I can hardly make myself do it. I'm not lazy, I'm just exhausted.  You'd think that one man, a woman who's only home about half the time, and two animals couldn't make such a mess, but you'd be wrong. I think messes just spill forth from Matt and Anakin... literally, just spontaneously flower to life around him.  Melodramatic?  Yes.  True?  Yes. Anyway, I did manage to get it all cleaned up and so far, it's remained cleaned up, so I'm hopeful that this time, unlike the dozens and dozens of other times, things will stay cleaned up -- and I call myself a pessimist!  Pretty Optimist wouldn't have sounded quite right, and I'm hardly what anyone would call an optimist anyway!

Once I got it cleaned up, I did almost nothing. I was supposed to go to Marsha's on Wednesday, but Matt was sick so I wasn't able to go.  I'd really have liked to, but leaving him alone and sick is a sure recipe for disaster.  Besides, he's such a baby when he's sick, he'd have texted me every two minutes whining about how miserable he was.  So, I stayed home.  Also, to be fair, I was up until the middle of the night (around 4:30am or so) with him sick and there was no way I could have slept enough to make the day a good one.  After that, the whole week just went down hill.

On Thursday, St. Paddy's Day, my fish died. R.I.P. Mr. Pretty, we hardly knew ye.  Then, Friday and Saturday I was feeling quite under the weather. On Sunday two things happened, I spent the whole day grading (or at least a good portion of it) after sleeping way too late, and my oven died. This is the second time in a year this has happened to us. I'm going to call Sears and see if they can send someone to fix it because it's almost new and I'm not buying another one already.  Electric ranges are not cheap!  Besides, it's likely still under warranty, which will be good because I'll get it fixed and it won't cost me anything.  Still, it made for a miserable day during which I was supremely emo.

My goodness, reading back over this I've realized that my life is supremely boring!  I'm not a terribly interesting person at all.  Fantastic. Ah well, c'est la vie.  Just a tad more and you'll be all updated and given a reprieve (~.^). Today it was back to work after the week-long break.  It's always hard to get back into the swing of things after a mid-semester break. Spring break is a blessing and a curse, for certain. Fortunately, today was quite good, which made coming back from break less painful. We got all of our prep for the in class writing out of the way (for the class I teach, not one I'm attending), so there'll be no lab tomorrow and my best girlfriend, Melanie, got her job back at the writing center (working part time) and we're going to be working together quite a bit!  Then, this evening, Matt, Melanie, Joey, and I went miniature golfing at a little put-put place in town. It's not much, especially not compared to places like Scandia and Castle Park, but it's a cozy little small town place and we had a really great time.  Then it was off to pie.  Now, I'm writing this because I'm procrastinating even further on my thesis proposal, two sections of which are due tomorrow.

I suppose I should be off to work on it, it's getting quite late.  Good night.