Wednesday, May 4, 2011

It's Almost Goodbye, Spring 2011...

Well, after a hectic five or six days, things are finally getting to the point of slowing down a bit. When this last weekend came, I literally had a 12-15 page paper, a 4+ page response paper, and a 3-4 page final to write and very little time to get them all done. I literally wrote 23 pages this last weekend, from Saturday to Tuesday. I'm exhausted! Fortunately, as of tonight, all of my classwork is turned in for the semester. Everything's out of my hands now, except one final.  So, I have that one final, next Wednesday, and I'm done with my classes for the semester--I also taught my last class this past Monday (May 2nd), so that's done.

Otherwise, all I have left is 6 more days of working in the writing center and some thesis proposal corrections to make. Oh, and I have two meetings tomorrow afternoon and have agreed to spend Friday night proctoring a final from 6:30-9:00 p.m. for another of the comp instructors.  Thank goodness this semester is nearly over. I don't think I've ever been, or will ever be, this happy to see a semester go again (I say that now!). It's just been exhausting, on every possible level, but there is a silver lining.

You see, this is my last semester of coursework. After this, it's internship and thesis only. No more going to classes, no more paper writing (unless you count the thesis), no more essay exams (unless you count the comps), no more presentations (unless you count the thesis defense and teaching classes).  No more dealing with problematic classmates.  It's all self-directed study from now on and I could not be happier about that fact. I'll have meetings once a week for one hour, and once every few weeks for my thesis, but that's nothing. Otherwise, I'll teach class for six hours a week, hold office hours for like four hours a week, and work on my thesis... oh, and grade papers, I'll have 50 students!

Another silver lining might be that I've learned more this semester, on a professional level, than any semester before. The assistantship has been amazing, I've learned to teach and grade college level comp (though it's still, and will forever be, a learning process).  I've learned how to deal with students and have read much theoretical scholarship about composition pedagogy. I've designed both a CV and a teaching philosophy statement. It's been a fantastic semester for my professional development and I'm pleased with the outcome thus far.

Anyway, enough of that. I'm about to be off, but before I go I wanted to share the pictures from my Sigma Tau Delta induction with you. Understand that I'm fairly hesitant. I don't think I look very good in the pictures and am feeling very self-conscious about my weight. Sometimes, seeing yourself from the outside, the way others see you, is heartbreaking. I'm trying to be positive about it, but it's not easy. So here they are (you can click them larger if you're dying to see them full size)...

I'm not sure how I feel about this picture. It's me, with Dr. Moumin Quazi, the director of the Kappa Chi chapter of Sigma Tau Delta at Tarleton. I look way too happy, and honestly, I was quite happy, which accounts for the stupid grin on my face. Also, I hate my hair in that picture, I had meant to get a haircut and never got around to it. Oh, and my forehead looks huge! Bah.

The group picture's better, but my hair is still a disaster and my forehead still looks enormous. I don't know everyone in the picture, but several of my friends were inducted with me, which made it really lovely. Starting from left to right (and omitting a few people): The blonde all the way to the left is Stacy, the two girls in the center of the photo are Paula (white cardigan/blue jeans) and Chelsea (gray shirt/black slacks), finally I'm all the way to the right side of the picture (black & flower blouse/black slacks).

As uncertain as I am to share them, I thought I'd do so so that my mother (and anyone else who might care) can see them. If they've made me realize anything it's that I need a haircut/dye and I need to go on a diet (which I plan to do very soon).

On that note, good night!


  1. What I see is a very happy young woman with a beatific smile due to reaching another important milestone. Good for you for sharing!

  2. I can't see the hair issues at all, and I think your grin looks so adorable! I guess we are our own harshest critics, right? So happy for you that you are almost done with your coursework...YAY!!! That must feel wonderful!

  3. I am so proud of you!!!!!!!!!! You look very happy for this accomplishment, which of course makes me happy too. I wish you wouldn't be so critical about yourself, I think that you are beautiful... Love you!! Mom <3

  4. I think you're one of the sexiest women alive, regardless of the angle and lighting in a photo. :P

    More importantly... damn, girl. You've picked yourself up by the bootstraps and did some hard @#$%ing work. I've been told obtaining a BA/Masters in English is one of the easiest things to do, but I think it's BS now, hearing of all the work you've done. I'm amazed you've kept that motivation!

    Rooting for you next semester, sweety.

  5. Thanks you, Jodi!

  6. Thanks Shan, I think I see the hair issues because I have to look at myself all the time. Now, my hair's red and I'm still not sure I like it. Never happy, never happy. I am happy, that much is certain!

  7. Thanks mom, I love you!! I am happy in that picture, I was feeling very proud of myself at that moment. I still do, too, when I look at the certificate. I feel like I accomplished something, for the first time in a long time. I love you, too! <3

  8. /hug, Eris. I'm not sure who told you getting a degree in English is easy, but trust me, it's not. It's a lot of work. The BA was easier by far than the MA, but neither was particularly easy. Hmm, well, I suppose, compared with physics or math, it's easy. LOL. I'm amazed I've kept that motivation, too, honestly.


  9. Thank you!! I just found this comment in the spam box, for some reason. Damn Askimet going berserk!

  10. <3 you're such a sexy beast.

    I'm considering going back to school myself, looking forward to various writing classes, though for now I may stick back to psych.

    When am I gonna see your name in print as a MA holder? =p

  11. If everything goes according to plans, I'll graduate with my MA in English in May 2012. Then, that summer, Matt and I will move to CA. So happy about that... probably more than getting my MA at this point, because graduating means I can go home!

    <3 Go back to school, you're smart and that would be awesome. Psych sounds like a good road for you!