Sunday, June 24, 2012

Thesis & Some Other Stuff

I know, crazy interesting title, right? Heh.

Goodness!!  I really miss the days when blogging was a priority... okay, okay, there were never days when blogging was a priority. Maybe in the future, though?  Maybe, but probably not. As much as I love blogging, I've got sooooooooooo much going on. Huh, that's irony right there. A blog is a place to talk about all the things you've got going on, but if you've got too much going on you don't have time to blog. Nice.

So, what have I been up to? Let's see... thesis, thesis, and more freaking thesis. Yes, that again. Sorry. If you happen to scroll down a bit you'll see that I'm done writing the thing, which is awesome, except that being done writing it doesn't mean being done. Not at all. Rather, there're corrections, more corrections, read-though, more corrections, a defense, and likely, more corrections. Yeah, I'm in corrections hell. But on the other side of corrections hell is graduation heaven!  I'm so thankful to be nearly completely done.

Right now, the last major hurdle is my defense... it's on Tuesday, the 26th, and I am absolutely, positively petrified. I actually thought about not writing this because it just reminds me of my impending defense, which we're unofficially calling "discussion" now because defense sounds like war. I have been assured this is not, in fact, war. That doesn't make me any less afraid, believe it or not. I actually alternate between feeling like I'll be fine and feeling like I might make an idiot of myself by bursting into tears in the middle of the defense. I think the tears are much more likely than bravery, but I'm trying to think positive. I'm sure that I'll feel fantastic once it's done, I know I did with my comps, and unlike comps I won't have to wait to find out the verdict, they tell you then and there... after some deliberation, of course.  My committee chair says that no one fails these things, but that doesn't much ease my fear. I guess I'm just one of those people who can find something to be afraid of, even with reassurances.

Anyhow, onto a new topic, because I'm feeling the tears right now. Since the last time I wrote I got new furniture. We got a sofa, a recliner, a 9 cube book case, a floor lamp that has shelves, and I got new shower curtains for the bathroom and a new desk chair. Amazing how much a little bit of new furniture can perk a place up!

What else, let's see, I've been reading a lot lately. I've read three books in the last four days. I suppose it's all that nervous energy worrying about my defense. Either way, I've enjoyed taking the time to read a few books. Of course, everything I'm reading have sequels coming up, but not for months, and I'm not good at waiting. Ugh, no, I'm actually terrible at waiting! Strangely, I think waiting to find out what happens next is putting more stress on me than it should be, but it could be deferred stress, so I'm trying not to feel like a basket case.

Anyway, I think that's about it. I'm off for now, I'm going to my friend's defense tomorrow, at 2pm. Looking forward to that, actually, but since it's almost 2am, I'm going to bed. Good night.