I wrote a few days ago about about being in a rut I can't seem to escape from. After writing, I lay in my bed, unable to go to sleep and thinking about what I could do to fix it. It turns out writing it down had exactly the effect I had hoped it would, it made me contemplate how I could make it better and that led me to making a plan. For the first time, I'm seeing a problem and making a plan to fix it. That's not my usual way, so I feel good about it.
The plan is pretty simple, but I think I want to share it here. It's really all the things normal people do, but that I've struggled with because of anxiety and depression. So, if it seems easy or like a duh, try to remember that people with depression struggle with easy.
- Establish a consistent sleep schedule, stop over-sleeping
- Cook and eat at home, stop ordering DoorDash so much
- Drink more water and stop drinking so much soda
- Go out and try to walk, even if I can't much, accept trying as success
- Be more proactive about mental health, including regulating meds and going back to meditation
- Do my at home PT exercises every single day
- Spend at least 30 minutes a day cleaning up (on non-gaming days)
- Do something to make me feel better about my appearance
- Focus on reconnecting with gaming (tabletop RPG)
- Spend some time on hobbies, like diamond painting, and read a book
See, pretty simple, but many things I've been unable to actually do for a while, whether because of a lack of motivation or because I physically couldn't. The list I made on my phone is a bit more comprehensive, each of those points have sub-points, but I didn't think that was really necessary to share. And, so far, I've actually started to succeed, with varying degrees of difficulty, to do the things on the list. I think the most important thing is that I'm making a plan and trying. Always keep pushing forward, no matter how hard that might be.
