Tuesday, January 25, 2022

Making a Plan

I wrote a few days ago about about being in a rut I can't seem to escape from. After writing, I lay in my bed, unable to go to sleep and thinking about what I could do to fix it. It turns out writing it down had exactly the effect I had hoped it would, it made me contemplate how I could make it better and that led me to making a plan. For the first time, I'm seeing a problem and making a plan to fix it. That's not my usual way, so I feel good about it. 

The plan is pretty simple, but I think I want to share it here. It's really all the things normal people do, but that I've struggled with because of anxiety and depression. So, if it seems easy or like a duh, try to remember that people with depression struggle with easy.

  1. Establish a consistent sleep schedule, stop over-sleeping
  2. Cook and eat at home, stop ordering DoorDash so much
  3. Drink more water and stop drinking so much soda
  4. Go out and try to walk, even if I can't much, accept trying as success
  5. Be more proactive about mental health, including regulating meds and going back to meditation
  6. Do my at home PT exercises every single day
  7. Spend at least 30 minutes a day cleaning up (on non-gaming days)
  8. Do something to make me feel better about my appearance
  9. Focus on reconnecting with gaming (tabletop RPG)
  10. Spend some time on hobbies, like diamond painting, and read a book
See, pretty simple, but many things I've been unable to actually do for a while, whether because of a lack of motivation or because I physically couldn't. The list I made on my phone is a bit more comprehensive, each of those points have sub-points, but I didn't think that was really necessary to share. And, so far, I've actually started to succeed, with varying degrees of difficulty, to do the things on the list. I think the most important thing is that I'm making a plan and trying. Always keep pushing forward, no matter how hard that might be.