Saturday, January 7, 2023

What I learned in 2022

While pondering the surreal fact that it is literally 2023, I got to considering what 2022 taught me about myself. It was a year filled up ups and downs, maybe more so than any year in recent memory. Definitely the most challenging year we've had since moving to Utah almost 8 years ago. But, I rarely spend time looking back at how I changed or how I grew. Much to the contrary, I've spent a heck of a lot of time thinking about how the previous years were crushing or how miserable I was for this reason or that.

This year, I'm working to manifest happiness and strength. I'll be 45 years old this year and I've finally come to the place where I think understand who I am, at least a little bit, thanks to 2022's many lessons. I'm both too old and too young to dwell in misery. Time to look forward to all the adventures we've yet to have and only look back to consider what I've learned. 

So how did 2022 change me? I learned that I am stronger than I thought I was. Sounds cliché, but it could not be truer than it was in 2022.  I learned to walk on my own two feet again, even though I was in pain and afraid. I learned that disappointments often open doors. I learned that if you put your intentions out in the universe, in earnest, and work toward your goals, things will happen for you. I discovered that when adversity hits, when the unexpected comes, I am capable of picking myself up and carrying on with grace. I can hold more weight on my shoulders than I could have known without the many challenges last year tossed our way.

It was a year of starts, of reconnecting, and also of ends. It was also a year of false starts, worries, and adversity. But, I think, the lesson is this... nothing worth having is easy and challenges encourage more growth than comfort ever could. What did I learn in 2022? I am smart and strong, I always have been, the difference is that I know it now. I cannot wait to see what 2023 has to teach me.